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A Guided Tour of Julian's Mind, *restricted access* posted Jul 4th 2006, 2:58AM
| Mood: Discouraged | Music: Maybe Tomorrow - Sterophonics = the best song ever |
Music: I listen to everything, although, i dont really like country that much
I AM: I have no idea, but i can tell you what other people have said that i am: certifiably insane, cute, emo, bipolar, lol, passionate, confusing, deep, dark, a maze with no exit, and forever shifts, funny, scarry, mean, and some other things i cant think of right now....
I WANT: to be happy
I HAVE: lots, yet i feel just as empty...
I WISH: that i could just get out of this insane world
I HATE: ALOT!!, lol, i have a list of people, school sometimes, the whore's at my school, the "popular" people at my school, the racest/biast/sexist/just dont plain like you teachers at my school, the school admin that dont give a flying fuck about the students, and a hellofa bunch of other things....
I FEAR: i have panophobia, which, for those that dont know, is the fear of everything, i fear my clothes, my walls, and even myself...
I HEAR: everything
I REGRET: not taking a chance when it could have turned out good, not standing up for myself when i should have, opening my mouth when i probably shoud've thought out what i was going to say, i regret trusting any school "offical" (i.e admin) and mostly everything, but it would seem as of now, i cannot change my past, which is too bad.
I LOVE: not alot, my cat(s, which 2 are dead), and somethings in life
I ALWAYS: care too much about what other people think of me, and letting it ruin my life.
I DANCE: can, but only with girls, lol, and that doesnt happen very often, it has happened, but not very often, and im not talking about my mom Dana, lol
I SING: yes, but like above, lol
I CRY: yes, it happens,
I SHOULD: i should do alot of things, but (see "regrets") i wont do them....
[ YES OR NO , YOU ]
KEEP A DIARY: does this count?
HAVE A SECRET JOURNAL: not unless my secret twin living in my secret basement in my secret closet....
BITE YOUR FINGERNAILS: yes, i could point fingers as to why, but, meh, but now i just cut them, like compulsively, lol
BELIEVE IN LOVE: im not so sure....
[ DO YOU ]
HAVE A/ANY CRUSH(ES): yes
HAVE ANY TATTOOS: unless their inside my anus, and you can get somebody to do anuses in the persons dead-like state, then no, lmao
THINK YOU ARE A HEALTH FREAK: i take care of my body, not sure why, but otherwise, not a chance
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: not at all! my parents dont respect me, my (hard, might i add) decisions, or anything i do.
[ FAVORITE ]
NUMBER(s): 13
COLOR: well black, blue, and others,
DAY: depends on how that week has gone.
MONTH: October
SONG: well it changes alot, but My Friends - Red Hot Chili Peppers
FOOD: i like all food
SEASON: Autumn
FAST FOOD: subway, at least its healthy
[ IN THE LAST 24 HOURS , HAVE YOU ]
CRIED?: no
HELPED SOMEONE?: yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING?: yes
GOTTEN SICK?: not really
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: No.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER?: No.
SAID "I LOVE YOU"?: no
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?: no, thats what email's for
TALKED TO AN EX?: what ex?, lol, no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: does this count?
MISSED SOMEONE?: deeply
HUGGED SOMEONE?: cat?
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS?: yes, read journal before this one..
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: no
[ WOULD YOU EVER ]
1. EAT A BUG?: have
2. BUNGEE JUMP?: awesome, when do we jump
3. HANG GLIDE?: god yes, thats so cool, almost like flying..
4. KILL SOMEONE?: what excatly did that person do to me?
5. HAVE SEX WITH SOMEONE YOU DON'T LOVE?: well unfourtunatly, every man, even us good one's, will probably at some time have regretably sex
7. PARACHUTE FROM A PLANE?: yeah, my uncle teaches that,
8. WALK ON HOT COALS?: once i learned the science, lol, yes there is a science to that...
9. GO OUT WITH SOMEONE FOR JUST THEIR LOOKS?: well.....maybe at first, but most likely not
10. FOR THEIR REPUATION? pfff, i dont care about your rep.
11. BE A VEGETARIAN?: no, people need iron, and other things that nothing else has in meat, meat has things that can help your immune system, so fuck no,
12. WEAR PLAID WITH STRIPES?: um, for what occasion?
13. I.M A STRANGER: i've done it before
14. SING KARAOKE?: ^^^^^^^^^^^
17. RUN A RED LIGHT?: maybe, but it would depend some things, like if some road-raged asshole is chasing me...lol
18. DYE YOUR HAIR BLUE?: in an instant *gets dye*
19. BE ON SURVIVOR?: no, because nobody would live through it but me, god i hate Jeff, what a douche
22. MAKE SOMEONE CRY?: i hope not, but it happens
23. KICK A BABY?: well, if it was Stewie Griffin, lmao, but hell no
24. STAY UP ALL THROUGH THE NIGHT?: i've done it before
[ THE LAST PERSON WHO ]
1. SLEPT IN YOUR BED BESIDES YOU?: my cat
2. SAW YOU CRY?: a friend, but it was at a memorial, at school,
3. MADE YOU CRY?: the person who's memorial it was for...
4. WENT TO THE MOVIES WITH YOU?: Allen, Malcolm, Ben
5. YOU WENT TO DINNER WITH?: um, i guess parents
6. YOU TALKED ON THE PHONE WITH?: um, Dana's mom, oh god, 
7. MADE YOU LAUGH?: Harry Potter Chatroom, LMFAO,ROFL
[ WOULD YOU RATHER ]
1. PIERCE YOUR NOSE OR TONGUE?: tongue
2. BE SERIOUS OR FUNNY?: funny
3. DRINK WHOLE OR SKIM MILK?: i hate white milk
4. DIE IN A FIRE OR DROWN: Well, i know how a person drowns, and its not pretty, and i also know how someone dies from burning, (dont ask how, lol), but i would choose S.H.C - Spontanious Human Combustion, you cook from the inside out, but nothing else: clothes, etc., doesnt, and its like E, (*so i've been told, lol*)
5. SPEND TIME WITH YOUR PARENTS OR YOUR ENEMIES?: Keep your friends close, and your enemies even closer, seeing as what doesnt kill you, only makes you stronger
[ ARE YOU ]
1. SIMPLE OR COMPLICATED?: OVER complicated
2. GAY?: absoluty not
3. HARDCORE?: lmao, in what way?
[ DO YOU PREFER ]
1. FLOWERS OR CANDY?: flowers as in, Sakura blossoms, then yes, flowers, otherwise, candy
2. GRAY OR BLACK?: Black
3. COLOR OR BLACK&WHITE PHOTOS?: a famous photographer once said that the best colours were Black & White...
5. SUNRISE OR SUNSET?: both are beautiful
8. STAYING UP LATE OR WAKING UP EARLY?: um rather then that, waking up late, and going to bed early, which i never do, lol
[ANSWER TRUTHFULLY]
1. DO YOU LIKE ANYONE?: yes
2. DO THEY KNOW IT: yes
3. DO THEY LIKE YOU?: it would appear not. :(
[ DO YOU PREFER ]
1. SUN OR MOON?: Luna
2. WINTER OR FALL?: Autumn
3. LEFT OR RIGHT?: I'm a righty
4. HAVING TEN ACQUAINTENCES OR TWO BEST FRIENDS?: Two best friends
5. SUN OR RAIN?: Rain, the sounds are lovely
6. VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM?: chocolate
[ ABOUT YOU ]
1. WHAT TIME IS IT? 12:35:10 am
2. NAME?: Julian David MacIssac LeBlanc Lum Smith, lmao
3. NICKNAME(S)?: Jules, Jubes - special, JubeJubes - VERY special, as in, i better love you for me to let you call me that, lol
4. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?: Toronto, Ontario, Canada, North America, Earth, Milky Way, 51st Quadrant, lmao
5. WHAT IS YOUR BIRTHDATE?: Thursday October 12, which is a FUCKING bitch, because i could have been born on Friday, October, the 13th, which doesnt come along very friggin often - the October part anyway, if i held out for like 10 hours, fuck, lol
6. WHAT SONG DO YOU HAVE STUCK IN YOUR HEAD: Consumer Whore - Lemon Demon
[ UNIQUE ]
CAN YOU ROLL YOUR TONGUE?: Yes.
CAN YOU RAISE ONE EYEBROW?: *tries, but fails*
CAN YOU CROSS YOUR EYES?: yes, and can zoom, thats right, i have zoom on this baby!, lmao
DO YOU MAKE YOUR BED DAILY?: hell, your lucky if i make it once a year, lol
EVER THROWN ONE AT SOMEONE?: a bed, um no, wtf?
WHAT JEWELRY DO YOU WEAR?: um, necklaces, really nice ones, but some i only wear for certain people(Crosses = Dana, lmao), and other occasions/moods
DO YOU TWIRL YOUR SPAGHETTI?: sometimes
HAVE YOU EVER EATEN SPAM?: ew no, sorry, i dont eat meat that comes out of a can, especially when its square, lol
FAVORITE ICE CREAM?: um, well, i guess anything with caramel, or cookies and cream, lol, cream
HOW MANY KINDS OF CEREAL ARE IN YOUR CABINET?: like 10
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE RESTAURANT?: um, Mariko - japanese
[ IN THE LAST MONTH , HAVE YOU ]
HAD A BF/GF?: not exactly...
BOUGHT SOMETHING?: Yes
SANG?: um, i think so
BEEN KISSED?: *sighs, no*
GOTTEN HIGH?: if by high you mean, holding your breath until you passout, then yes, lol
DANCED CRAZY?: um no
GOTTEN YOUR HAIR CUT?: Dana, say nothing, just stfu, lol,
CRIED?: i dont think so
LIED?: to get out of things, and to get into things
stolen from Dana, who stole it from Julie, lol, so Copyright Julie 2006, lol |
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Covered in a veil of darkness, I wander around the maze of my mind. Trying to find the door to escape, to escape myself, while searching for something, something that is lost inside. My life fading in and out of the spectrum of light like a shadow. The storms of demise swivel overhead. While in the glistening presence of the crescent moon shines through the storm.
I approach the light and the priestess of the godless moon drifts down from within the light. I try to speak, but I can't. Suddenly, she kisses me. As she kisses me, she puts her hand over the hole in my chest, and shines her light through. I then realized where I was, inside my soul.
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Der Sensenmann Says: (Jul 23rd 2006, 11:42PM)
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Are you mad at me? ;___;
Did I do something wrong?
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I'm sorry. ;___________;
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Der Sensenmann Says: (Jul 17th 2006, 9:28PM)
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I think you'll truly be able to appreciate this, Julian.
http://www.sheezyart.com/view/843724/
Haha.
How were the little shits today? Even though you've still got like five hours to work. x___x
ANSWER MEH.
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Der Sensenmann Says: (Jul 17th 2006, 4:55PM)
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Hahahahahahahahahaha... ha.
Guess what?
I raped you.
Yes I did. >3
You need to get over here. Now. So... you know. Sharpies.
LICK 'EM, BITCH.
P.S. You still owe me sex. Gimme dat sex, gimme dat sex now! >~<
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